Infosys 5th yr Anniversary

Stagefright anyone?

Who has it?

Me.

And we probably all do, somehow.

Going back to my school days, I’ve always had a rough time reporting in front of the class. For some reason when I start to speak, I forget everything. Mental block.

I was kind of like this when I was in college:

“Ah… Hmm… Well… As you can see… You know… Yeah… Moving on…”

A lot of fillers. And I act stupid all the time. Defense mechanism I suppose. I tend too goof-around a lot and deliberately make a fool out of myself to mask the nervousness.

Aaaah… I really wanted to do well you know? Make the class think that I know more than they think I do. But the prof is not so easily fooled by my antics “Oh, she’s just shy.” Gee, thanks sir for seeing right-through me and breaking my disguise as a class clown.

So much for that. But once we grow older, public speaking is inevitable. You would have to somehow, sometime say something in front of people — office, church perhaps, group meetings, what have you. You need to suck it up and start talking. No time for shyness and clowning around. (Okay maybe a bit of the latter)

To cut our story short, I have been able to conquer my fear of the stage (I guess); and of the mic; and of the crowd.

Whenever I see it, I get excited. There is still a tad nervousness that creeps in, but just the right amount. They say “nerves is energy, yield it.”

Just yesterday I co-hosted a company party/event and I must say I did have a lot of fun.

I did mess up a couple of words/lines here and there, but I received generally good feedback. Haha. I asked my friends:

“Did I look stupid?”

“No you were great.”

“You really are my friends!”

And the organizer goes “Ysah from now on you’ll be hosting every show!” Me deep inside: “Noooooooo! I over-did my cute T_T” Haha

(Do I get paid for this? Over-time perhaps?)

Jut Kidding. I  did get 2 rounds of food though, plus take-out. And USB card-reader from Globe, one of our sponsors.

Honestly, the day before the event, I was more concerned of my outfit than my to-be-performance. I was like “What am I gonna wear???”

Girls…

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Happy Thanksgiving 0:)

Posted on July 22, 2012

Today is a Sunday, my favorite day of the week.

Why? No work, every family member is in the house, proper meals, and of course, worship service.

And today is no ordinary Sunday. It’s Thanksgiving day.

I know it might not make sense to everyone, but for the members of the Church of Christ it does. Ever since I was a kid, it has been this way. Twice a year we will celebrate Thanksgiving – mid year and end of year.

When I was a kid it might have been just an occassion that me and my parents dress-up for. But as I grew older, it made more sense. More meaning.

I just feel very blessed, believe it or not. I mean, life’s not perfect. It never is, never was, never will be. But see, amidst all imperfections of it, trials and hardships, I’m still here. Still breathing, still able to have dinner with my family, with friends that care for me. Life ain’t bad mate. It’s good s’matter of fact.

*i think I sound so serious right now

My point is, there are so many things to be thankful for.

Happiness. Success. Peace of mind. Things that money can’t buy.

I guess I’m just really happy right now. My mind and heart is in the right place. And I got the very wish I’ve been praying for for years. (hint, hint)

I’m writing this post with a huge smile on my face. (and my lhasa apso sleeping on my chest btw)

And oh…

Happy 98th Anniversary to the Church of Christ. Regards to the brethren all around the world.

^_^

Amazing Day, 29th of June

Posted on July 20, 2012 via Wordpress

(This has been sitting on my phone drafts for 3 weeks LOL)

Several good things happened today, Friday. In no particular order – just gonna lay them out 

I’ve found my Sbux planner which I thought have disappeared from the face of the earth! I’ve searched for months man. And my room ain’t big at all. I dunno how it just, all of a sudden, miraculously re-appeared.

“Accio planner!”

My last posts in it were like from February… T_T
Truly sad, so many amazing things happened since. I would have loved to have written them down.

One more amazing thing that happened today was that I have discovered the wonders of a book sale. Yeah, you heard it right mates, BOOK SALE. (Ysa you crazy girl, never heard/ saw a book sale before?) (Course I have, duh)

Anywho… Back to the sale…

I saw a copy of Time Traveler’s wife for only 180php! I was tempted to get it, but ended up not having to. I’ve read it; and it’s not like it’s rare or anything. Well, we saw a bunch of good ones. I had to restrain myself from getting 10 books!

\(^O^)/

In the end I got a UK copy of Northern Lights (Golden Compass in American) with a sketch of Lyra on the cover. I have read it yeah, but see this copy is rare. And it’s only for 110php. Pretty cool deal if you ask me.

*I have read Sutle Knife as well, I have a copy at home. I’m yet to read Amber Spy-glass, but I’m sooo lazy these days.

Also I found a very old-looking copy of Two Towers, w/ the pages stained gold-yellow at the side. (I probably better post a pic). Plus, it’s only for 37php. You heard it right. Unbelievable. And my friend got a Stephen King for himself. I haven’t read one book from him though, maybe this is a good time to start. 

What else? What other amazing thing that happened today? Mmmm… Oh I know.

It was a payday Friday and I got to indulge myself w/ all the Japanese food that I want. I forever love ebi tempura and hot miso soup  

One last thing, it was my parents’ 32nd wedding anniversary yesterday! They celebrated it tonight and had a dinner w/ my sister, Audrey. Too bad I couldn’t go cause of work. But, I did meet them during break at Highstreet and had donuts and coffee for dessert. Ah, perfect day.

Tired but happy. A day well spent with loved-ones.
What more could a girl ask for? 

Bad mood Monday

Posted on July 17, 2012 via Wordpress 

I was feeling down today, to say the least. Sicky-sicky since last night. Runny nose, tummy ache, and… Okay no further details.

Early morn I was already pissed off. I failed to wake up and attend a church thing. I was mad at myself. Smmmmhhhhh.

I tried to elevate my mood by cooking lunch for dad and my sister -fish and veggies. It did change my mood a bit. But then my head started to throb, it’s prolly due to my up-and-coming-colds. Least to say I was not in the mood again. Smh.

Afternoon came and it was Wafer’s bathing and grooming time. Now this definitely changed my mood since our good friend came over and helped us. I call her Wafer’s official groomer 

I tried to sleep for a couple more hours before going to work at night. I have no idea what’s wrong with me today, I couldn’t sleep. I was beginning to accept that it will be a groggy Monday night shift at work. What a way to start my week.

And then, I was supposed to meet someone (special?) before heading to work. I made an effort to be cute and all, dressed up an hour early for work. And guess what? I suddenly didn’t get any replies.

No calls, no Sms, no BBMs. My head started hurting again. Literally. Colds and disappointment combined. I might’ve looked like this >:/

Breath in, breath out.

I would like to blame it on my hormones, yeah. But still, this day shall not end with a bad note.

So I picked my self up, went and got a latte and my favorite sandwich, and greeted everyone in the office with a huge smile. Some even complimented my make-up and outfit. (If you only knew I’m making a huge effort to smile and talk right now)…

I got an explanation why my date stoop me up: he fell asleep. How great  )))

Lesson: However bad your day started, you can always choose how it ends.

‘Til next post. Cheers.

Me today...

Woah, May is about to end.

How fast does time fly? Really.

Yikes. Seems like it was New Year, then it was my Bday last March, and now it’s almost mid-2012.

I dunno about you, but I felt that my life took a 360 degree turn.

Things happen. Unexpected. Changes. Good or bad. Good and bad.

I guess all I can say is that my heart and my mind is in a better place now.

I’m happy. Finally again.

But as we all know, everything in this life is temporary as life itself.

Everything can change in a snap. Boom, you’re sad again.

But I can’t worry about that now. For reality is finally better than my dreams.

And I’ve finally learned how to let go of any form of control.

Who knows? This might really be it.

A Visit to Liliw

Posted on April 8, 2012

Saturday morning, Apr 7 we drove to Liliw, Laguna. It’s my mom’s hometown.

As much as I would like to be my-usual-energetic-self, I was really tired. I came from an 8-hour night shift see. Nevertheless, I was excited to go there since it’s been what, 2 yrs? I miss the place. More so the people.

So we’re on our way, traffic ain’t so bad, we even stopped somewhere to get food – Krispy Kremes donuts, we were playing music in the car, chatting, everybody happy.

And then we ran into car troubles — clutch is broken, and somewhere in Los Banos we stopped in the middle of the road. Five people, including the Buko Pie and Espasol vendor had to push our car to the side.

To cut my story short, my dad figured it would take a while for the car to be fixed, and it’s scorching hot. We need to somehow clear out since Kuya mechanic has to fix it.

Where to go? To the nearest mall of course! We waited, ate and shopped just to kill time until our Tito Jun picked us up. My dad had to stay w/ the car until it gets fixed, poor him. But what chpice does he have? Good thing is when we arrived at my Lolo’s house, my dad got there roughly an hour later. So it didn’t take that long for them to finish fixing it anyway.

The food at my Lolo’s house was divine! I miss the freshness of the fish, even the rice tastes somehow different. I ate away until I couldn’t eat anymore. Also, the air is cooler, fresher,and so different from the Manila ambiance.

I wanted to say that the was peaceful, but it’s not. And it’s because my cousins from my mom’s side are there, and so are some other relatives. So it’s like 15 people talking at the same time. It’s chaos to say the least. But really, really fun.

All my attempts to get some sleep failed.

I was getting messages from my friends to get them Buko Pie, slippers (since Liliw does this Tsinelas Festival) and all sorts. I made a mental note that I will get them later in the day.

By afternoon I gave in. I was fast asleep on the couch and they went to the shoes/slippers’ shops w/o me. I mean, shoe shopping is REALLY my thing, but I had to pass since I was too groggy to even get up.

They came back, woke me up and told me that there were a lot of people shopping. Just like how crowded the malls are here in Manila. And that there were a lot of foreigners around, Americans, Koreans and a lot more. It’s really nice that the tourism in Liliw is booming. Just about time, cause it is a lovely place.

After the pictures are taken, food trays emptied, bellies doubled in size, we said our goodbyes. For it might take another 1, or maybe even 2 yrs before we get to see each other again.

It was a brief, and yet a very nice visit. Come to think of it, I did grow up in Liliw. Spend like my first 4 yrs of life there. It’s a home apart from Makati. And so it will be for the rest of my life 

Cheers to all Liliwenos out there 

Gelene, Camille, Ian, Audrey, Darrah and myself