I don't care?

ang sarap kumanta ng "I don't care e e e e e, I don't care e e e e e, Boy I don't care"

Although you know that you do, very much. Hmm? tsktsk... Truth is, and I always say this, when you started to care, you can't pretend to NOT care anymore. Walang undo ang LOVE. Redo pwede pa. Anyway, thanks 2ne1 for the background music.

I'm flipping. And I had to blog it out. *haaay* And before we know it, we start to become some1 we're not. Like I said, I'm flipping. I don't like it. My mates don't even notice anything, but deep inside I am. Di ako mapakali, there you go.

I'm usually just cool about everything...like everything is just okay. Cge lang...pasaway ka ha? ayos lang yan... But that's the thing about me, I'm too passive. =(

I like to just wait and let things unfold, I don't usually mess with destiny. I just take everything in. Whatever you have for me, bring it on.

Wakarimashita. Altough sometimes I don't. I try to understand.

Anyway, ang labo ko talaga mag-blog. HAHA. As always, no details.

I thought I knew what I wanted to write about. I decided I better not. Bka magsisi lang ako.

I think if we begin to expect, we just set ourselves up for disappointment. And the bigger the expectation, the greater the disappointment.

But when we already witnessed the best part of someone, amidst all his imperfections, we can't pretend that we din't. And that's it. We've fallen.

I'll dig you up from what is covering the better part of you.

Tamang Dig by Incubus naman un background. haha. This ends this post. till next time. Cheers.

Confusion leads to Cancer

Where did I get it that when you think of your dilemmas too much, or that when you keep a big secret to yourself it does confuse your cells; And therefor it makes you prone to Cancer?

Oh, I remember, from an Aga Mulach and Claudine Baretto movie I've seen some years back...

But is it true? Dunno.

Maybe stress makes you more Cancer-prone. Maybe it doesn't. What am I pointing at?

Well, I apologize to my cells but I can't help it if they get so confused at this time. 'Cause I myself can't even seem to eliminate some things that give me head/heart ache. Aargh.

A former President of the Philippines' recent demise makes me think, I don't want to get such disease.

Maybe I need to stop it, stop confusing myself; it's not healthy -- literally (if the confusion-leads-to-Cancer theory is true).

But how? Deep inside i feel I still needed some answers. I still demand some explanation. Some sort of confirmation that it had to be ended. And that there is no where to go but forward. Move on.

But maybe I will never get it. I just might be too delusional to hope that something great is still waiting to happen.

I'm tired of it honestly. I'm trying to eliminate the thought as much as I can. But the fact that it enters my head almost every time makes it so annoying.

This I know: Joy counters stress. Prayers take away confusion.

So I hope I don't get too caught up with these questions in my head and pay for the price 10 years from now.

Geez, when do I ever learn. Anyway, Moving on --

I can't wait!... Anxiety attack!

I can't wait to watch Angels and Demons... Unfortunately I didn't get to last Friday, I didn't expect Greenbelt Cinema is going to be so full. From 8:30 screening to the LFS which is 12 mn, it's all reserved. And it was like shown in 4 Cinemas in Greenbelt at the least. Crazy. Miriam Quimbao and her foreigner date was lining up behind us and I bet she didn't get to watch it either. Maybe they just opted for Terminator...w/c I don't think is that bad at all.

I was definitely frustrated that time. (plus the fact that i lost my wallet and had my ATM card blocked that night. Jeez! anyway...)

To clarify, I'm no fan of Dan Brown or any of his works. Not a fan. I read Digital Fortress and I swear that is just it. I appreciate maybe the effort that he puts to research facts to write in his novels, but as a writer...not a fan. 'Nuff said. But I can't wait to watch this film (A&D) cause I've read some reviews (good and bad) and I reckon it's gonna be big on religion and politics. Topics that I really don't favor much but certainly arouses my interest.

Plus, Tom Hanks is one of my fave actors, since Forrest Gump and Philadelphia, so yeah... I bet it's gonna be worth 150 pesos. And I can't wait to write a critique about it. Good or Bad doesn't really matter. I bet it's worth my time.

Hmm...But I didn't get to watch Da Vinci Code though. I already had an idea what it was about since it was sort of a spin off of Holy Blood, Holy Grail but I've no idea about the characters and what the last film left off. I hope I'm not missing so much since this is a sequel to it. Or is it? some say it came first. Anyway...


If there is Illuminati and New World Order and attack to The Vatican involved, I'm there. Gonna buy the biggest Popcorn.... haha...

So, I might watch it tomorrow. yeepee. Ako nlang yata di pa nakakanood. I'm gonna treat my sis pra may hatak ako... wahaha....

Another movie I'm SO anxious to watch is....tentenenen.... Half Blood Prince!

OMG it's gonna be showing on July... ^_^

Self-confessed Harry fan, I'm sorry.See you at the Cinemas.

SMS Mode...

SMSing one night...


guy asked "honestly, do you find anyone interesting in the office?"

girl replied" what do you mean interesting?" "like I-want-to-be-with-him kind of interesting?"

guy confirmed "yeah" 'like more than friends sorta thing"

girl confused "Hmm...I dunno... why?"

guy shares "cuz I like someone in the office..." (still remains a secret)

girl asks"okay, who is she?" and adds " No one. nothing to be curious about "
(meaning: girl doesn't find anyone interesting... [really?])

....

hello mornings!

Im so proud of myself. For the past weeks, I've been trying (my best) to wake up early so that I'll have enough time to catch a coach (FX) to go to work. I realized that for the past 2 years that I have been working I been taking a cab almost every blessed everyday. And man, I only work in Ortigas. Will not even take a 30 minute drive from Makati.

So every morning, I convince my lazy-ass self that I have a goal, which is to get to the office on time and not run on my 3-inch heels on a Monday morning to catch the elevator, curse when I miss it, just to get to my station on time.

Goodness me, I could have just saved the 100 pesos that I pay for the cabbie for the past 2 years and top up my fone. To think, minsan Incoming lang ako....haha! But no worries. I've come to my senses now. It's never too late, eh?

And it doesn't stop there. I so love my mornings now that I get to read a good book (which I'm about to finish...Butcher Boy...kinda morbid verging on grotesque nga lang) while I'm on my fx ride and I get to walk merrily while listening to music on the busy streets of Emerald Avenue to get to Orient Square Bldg without even rushing.

Haay..Morning Bliss. And when I think of the money that I save... HAHA!

"I still have 15 mins to spare before my shift, Im a grab some latte" haha.

gastos din. Ysa talaga.

Anu Na?

this is definitely one of those spur-of-the-moment thing that we all do.... head full of thoughts that need to be out, released somehow... dialogues lingering on my head for days now. no, might've been weeks. i should have done this, shouldn't have done that. could've been more of this, could've been less of that. then maybe it would've been like that, not like this. lines that I want to be said but dunno how to. and dunno if it's better not to.... maybe.


all the shoulda, woulda, coulda's...but no matter. it's over now.

or is it? (-_-)

as i increase the volume of the loud music i'm listening to, i write this blog. cause im trying to write this with lesser emotion as possible cause if not it will be overly melodramatic.

so partially numb w/ the sound, i'll keep on writting. it's better this way. anyway, this blog is just as vague as my thoughts are right know so I pity those who will be reading this crappy blog, they will not get anything from it. haha...

the person who i want to dedicate this blog to probably wont even know that it is about him.... or her? just for vaugeness' sake. haha. alright. so?

Anu na?

Ewan. i guess i'm just gonna have to wait see...

Abangan ang susunod na Kabanata...

OBAMANATION

Cheers to the newest elected President of the United States of America, Mr. Barack Obama.
He is the first black President in the history of America and the 44th elected president of the White House.

Obama promised "Change" to the people that is why he captured the hearts of his fellow Americans. And with his famous line "Yes, we can!" even Hilary Clinton vowed to him.

I mean, you'd be a fool if you didn't hope for change after the Bush Administration, C'mon!

We are yet to see what Obama can do to save the most powerful country in the world from the nation-wide crisis it is experiencing right now. And of course, as citizens of the Philippines, we are gravely affected by the crisis along with almost all the nations of the world.

Hmm..Truth is, after George W. Bush, anyone who would assume his throne will be a "good" choice. Anyone. We all know what happened to America after Bush took over, two terms and what did he do? Bombed Iraq? 9/11 Conspiracy?

Alright, this blog is not intended for Bush and his crappy leadership.

Congratulations to the new President Elect, Barack Obama!

I so appreciated the tv special Abs-Cbn did to capture via live streaming, what was happening in Washington, DC. 2 million people gathered just to show their support... withstanding the cold weather.

Hopefully the next years of his rule with do good to USA and to the whole world...

Well "God Bless America!"

And if he turned out to be just like Bush...well, we can always throw a shoe at him....!


Cheers!

Otherwise

I'm okay...

No,I'm not.

Of course I am.

Fine.

And even if, say I'm not okay, I know soon I will be.

I just need to let this pass. Just let out a big *Haaaaayyyy* and it's gone...

Or maybe just sleep on it and tomorrow it won't be there anymore...

How I wish.

So stupid how few lines I read from somewhere can make one feel so... unsure.sad.

Again, it's happened.. I've told myself before not to entertain such.

But damn me, I'm so stubborn. And I never learn.

But just like an addict, without it you won't survive.

Why is it they say we shouldn't ride the horse that threw us the first time?

Maybe because of the obvious reason that you don't want to get hurt again...

But what if the second time becomes a better ride? then good.

But How would you know if you won't try?

But what if it gets to that point that you get thrown off too often you became numb to the pain?

Is there a difference if you give up now versus when you should have not continued in the first place?

Then what are you still holding on for?

I don'tknow. And that's what I don't understand about you.

It's frustrating, Yet it's amazing how you do it.

Well it's your ride so goodluck, have fun.

I just hope when you fall again I'd still be there to pick you up...

Or it can be otherwise --

Bitter ka ba?

Bitter ka ba? Wahaha ako hindi….

But I heard this on the radio some days ago and it made me laugh real hard! as in rolling on the floor laughing! ROTFL!

Sabi nung DJ n girl “Pag tinanong ka kung bakit kau ngbreak ng boyfriend mo…” or “kung bakit ka xa nagtwo-time…” (some thing to that effect) eto sabihin mo…

..Ayun, npressure sya sa Ganda ko, naghanap ng lower-level of Creation…

Wahaha…i didn’t say it, Nichole-legiala did….

anyway, it’s so funny…wahaha…

i know it’s mean but it feels so good to say that!

i can’t get over it…i better sleep now… you know, beauty rest…hahaha….

Cheers mates!

XOXO