The Dark Knight Rises - a late review

Posted on July 31, 2012 via Wordpress

Hang on, this will not be a straight-up review but more of a
blog-slash-review instead.

Why?

First of all, I know this is kind of late. Secondly, it’s not easy to make a
review of a film with this magnitude. Say one negative comment and avid fans
will terrorize you.

Side story: I saw the film last July 21, so this is kind of a back track.

We all agree the movie was great, yeah? They say it was epic; best Batman
movie ever; Nolan should direct every action hero film – In short, it’s
gotten generally positive reviews.

And I agree. I enjoyed it immensely. It has all the elements that you’ll be
looking for in a good movie: superb action scenes, touch of drama,
bit of comedy, love story, struggle, triumph, everything.

It was a bit too long, yes. But I thought the story was well-written that it
was forgivable. The casting was good too. Tom, Joseph, Gary and Anne
stood out. Oh, and Marion of course. She’s always great in every film, love
her.

In short, you’d have to be crazy not to see it. It’s a good conclusion
to The Dark Knight series. What more could a Batman fan ask for? Nothing.
Nolan gave us everything.

I’m sure we all noticed that almost the entire Inception cast was there. In the
cinema I was like “Tom? Joseph? Marion? Cillian? Inception?” Then I remember
that Nolan directed it too! Why not get the actors you’re already familiar
with, right? I’d do that too if I was the director.

And I’ve also read that Nolan initially wanted The Riddler to be the antagonist of this last film, but opted for Bane instead. Good choice there since Bane was like the ultimate enemy — brains and power combined. Plus, he wanted Leo to play Riddler? Woah! that would’ve been like Inception part 2. LOL

Now let’s talk about what we didn’t like about the film, shall we? This is a
critique after all 

*drum-roll*

I personally think that some of the dialogues were a bit lengthy. C’mon, Alfred had like what? 3 long and teary moments? I like his character but I felt that they had to squeeze in a LOT into his lines – seal the loop holes.  I get that they had to establish how much he loves Bruce; how he wanted him to live and surrender the cape etc. And how come he almost didn’t say anything
in the old Batman films and now suddenly become so talkative?

(Just my opinion, don’t get mad at me)

Moving on to Robin, he has so many unnecessary and lengthy lines as well! And not to mention way too many close-ups! (I know Joseph Gordon-Levitt is a good looking chap, but…) Yeah, yeah they had to establish his story too so the next
Batman movie (if there will ever be) can pick up from it. But some parts were boring…

Bane was great. However the story of him and the prison-with-no-escape was a bit
dragging. Do they really have to show it over and over again? (We’re not dumb, we get it, it’s hard to escape from that prison)

Bruce’s recovery was a bit of a drag too (sigh…) The underground prison scenes where they tell the story of Ra’s al Ghul was a bit forced. (or maybe it’s just me?)

And those police were trapped underground for 3 months? (Okayyyy…) If I were trapped underground for 3 months I would probably have removed my badge, cap, uniform and be walking around on my underwear. I’m not even kidding. ( This scene was way fictional)

Anne was a delight to see since she’s so gorgeous, that’s given. Safe performance. (Or maybe Michelle Pfeiffer was just so damn creepy  in that cat suit it hard to forget?)

*Let’s shift the gear now 

On the lighter side…

I think Batman’s motorcycle and flying car was beyond cool. I also like the
humor between Catwoman and Batman. Since there were very little humor in the
entire film.

“So that’s what it feels like” at the rooftop was hella funny.

Over-all verdict?

I would still give it 3.5 out of 5 stars. The movie started in a slow pace,
but the plot thickened towards the end. They could have edited it better, and
deleted unnecessary scenes. But nevertheless, it just may be the perfect ending for
our caped-crusader, our Dark Knight. Gotham has finally accepted Batman as the hero
that he truly is and he in return, he’s been able to live a normal and happy
life.

 :)

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watched TDKR when it was raining heavily outside. I was so dressed-down :)

Infosys 5th yr Anniversary

Stagefright anyone?

Who has it?

Me.

And we probably all do, somehow.

Going back to my school days, I’ve always had a rough time reporting in front of the class. For some reason when I start to speak, I forget everything. Mental block.

I was kind of like this when I was in college:

“Ah… Hmm… Well… As you can see… You know… Yeah… Moving on…”

A lot of fillers. And I act stupid all the time. Defense mechanism I suppose. I tend too goof-around a lot and deliberately make a fool out of myself to mask the nervousness.

Aaaah… I really wanted to do well you know? Make the class think that I know more than they think I do. But the prof is not so easily fooled by my antics “Oh, she’s just shy.” Gee, thanks sir for seeing right-through me and breaking my disguise as a class clown.

So much for that. But once we grow older, public speaking is inevitable. You would have to somehow, sometime say something in front of people — office, church perhaps, group meetings, what have you. You need to suck it up and start talking. No time for shyness and clowning around. (Okay maybe a bit of the latter)

To cut our story short, I have been able to conquer my fear of the stage (I guess); and of the mic; and of the crowd.

Whenever I see it, I get excited. There is still a tad nervousness that creeps in, but just the right amount. They say “nerves is energy, yield it.”

Just yesterday I co-hosted a company party/event and I must say I did have a lot of fun.

I did mess up a couple of words/lines here and there, but I received generally good feedback. Haha. I asked my friends:

“Did I look stupid?”

“No you were great.”

“You really are my friends!”

And the organizer goes “Ysah from now on you’ll be hosting every show!” Me deep inside: “Noooooooo! I over-did my cute T_T” Haha

(Do I get paid for this? Over-time perhaps?)

Jut Kidding. I  did get 2 rounds of food though, plus take-out. And USB card-reader from Globe, one of our sponsors.

Honestly, the day before the event, I was more concerned of my outfit than my to-be-performance. I was like “What am I gonna wear???”

Girls…

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Happy Thanksgiving 0:)

Posted on July 22, 2012

Today is a Sunday, my favorite day of the week.

Why? No work, every family member is in the house, proper meals, and of course, worship service.

And today is no ordinary Sunday. It’s Thanksgiving day.

I know it might not make sense to everyone, but for the members of the Church of Christ it does. Ever since I was a kid, it has been this way. Twice a year we will celebrate Thanksgiving – mid year and end of year.

When I was a kid it might have been just an occassion that me and my parents dress-up for. But as I grew older, it made more sense. More meaning.

I just feel very blessed, believe it or not. I mean, life’s not perfect. It never is, never was, never will be. But see, amidst all imperfections of it, trials and hardships, I’m still here. Still breathing, still able to have dinner with my family, with friends that care for me. Life ain’t bad mate. It’s good s’matter of fact.

*i think I sound so serious right now

My point is, there are so many things to be thankful for.

Happiness. Success. Peace of mind. Things that money can’t buy.

I guess I’m just really happy right now. My mind and heart is in the right place. And I got the very wish I’ve been praying for for years. (hint, hint)

I’m writing this post with a huge smile on my face. (and my lhasa apso sleeping on my chest btw)

And oh…

Happy 98th Anniversary to the Church of Christ. Regards to the brethren all around the world.

^_^

Amazing Day, 29th of June

Posted on July 20, 2012 via Wordpress

(This has been sitting on my phone drafts for 3 weeks LOL)

Several good things happened today, Friday. In no particular order – just gonna lay them out 

I’ve found my Sbux planner which I thought have disappeared from the face of the earth! I’ve searched for months man. And my room ain’t big at all. I dunno how it just, all of a sudden, miraculously re-appeared.

“Accio planner!”

My last posts in it were like from February… T_T
Truly sad, so many amazing things happened since. I would have loved to have written them down.

One more amazing thing that happened today was that I have discovered the wonders of a book sale. Yeah, you heard it right mates, BOOK SALE. (Ysa you crazy girl, never heard/ saw a book sale before?) (Course I have, duh)

Anywho… Back to the sale…

I saw a copy of Time Traveler’s wife for only 180php! I was tempted to get it, but ended up not having to. I’ve read it; and it’s not like it’s rare or anything. Well, we saw a bunch of good ones. I had to restrain myself from getting 10 books!

\(^O^)/

In the end I got a UK copy of Northern Lights (Golden Compass in American) with a sketch of Lyra on the cover. I have read it yeah, but see this copy is rare. And it’s only for 110php. Pretty cool deal if you ask me.

*I have read Sutle Knife as well, I have a copy at home. I’m yet to read Amber Spy-glass, but I’m sooo lazy these days.

Also I found a very old-looking copy of Two Towers, w/ the pages stained gold-yellow at the side. (I probably better post a pic). Plus, it’s only for 37php. You heard it right. Unbelievable. And my friend got a Stephen King for himself. I haven’t read one book from him though, maybe this is a good time to start. 

What else? What other amazing thing that happened today? Mmmm… Oh I know.

It was a payday Friday and I got to indulge myself w/ all the Japanese food that I want. I forever love ebi tempura and hot miso soup  

One last thing, it was my parents’ 32nd wedding anniversary yesterday! They celebrated it tonight and had a dinner w/ my sister, Audrey. Too bad I couldn’t go cause of work. But, I did meet them during break at Highstreet and had donuts and coffee for dessert. Ah, perfect day.

Tired but happy. A day well spent with loved-ones.
What more could a girl ask for? 

Bad mood Monday

Posted on July 17, 2012 via Wordpress 

I was feeling down today, to say the least. Sicky-sicky since last night. Runny nose, tummy ache, and… Okay no further details.

Early morn I was already pissed off. I failed to wake up and attend a church thing. I was mad at myself. Smmmmhhhhh.

I tried to elevate my mood by cooking lunch for dad and my sister -fish and veggies. It did change my mood a bit. But then my head started to throb, it’s prolly due to my up-and-coming-colds. Least to say I was not in the mood again. Smh.

Afternoon came and it was Wafer’s bathing and grooming time. Now this definitely changed my mood since our good friend came over and helped us. I call her Wafer’s official groomer 

I tried to sleep for a couple more hours before going to work at night. I have no idea what’s wrong with me today, I couldn’t sleep. I was beginning to accept that it will be a groggy Monday night shift at work. What a way to start my week.

And then, I was supposed to meet someone (special?) before heading to work. I made an effort to be cute and all, dressed up an hour early for work. And guess what? I suddenly didn’t get any replies.

No calls, no Sms, no BBMs. My head started hurting again. Literally. Colds and disappointment combined. I might’ve looked like this >:/

Breath in, breath out.

I would like to blame it on my hormones, yeah. But still, this day shall not end with a bad note.

So I picked my self up, went and got a latte and my favorite sandwich, and greeted everyone in the office with a huge smile. Some even complimented my make-up and outfit. (If you only knew I’m making a huge effort to smile and talk right now)…

I got an explanation why my date stoop me up: he fell asleep. How great  )))

Lesson: However bad your day started, you can always choose how it ends.

‘Til next post. Cheers.

Me today...

Woah, May is about to end.

How fast does time fly? Really.

Yikes. Seems like it was New Year, then it was my Bday last March, and now it’s almost mid-2012.

I dunno about you, but I felt that my life took a 360 degree turn.

Things happen. Unexpected. Changes. Good or bad. Good and bad.

I guess all I can say is that my heart and my mind is in a better place now.

I’m happy. Finally again.

But as we all know, everything in this life is temporary as life itself.

Everything can change in a snap. Boom, you’re sad again.

But I can’t worry about that now. For reality is finally better than my dreams.

And I’ve finally learned how to let go of any form of control.

Who knows? This might really be it.

A Visit to Liliw

Posted on April 8, 2012

Saturday morning, Apr 7 we drove to Liliw, Laguna. It’s my mom’s hometown.

As much as I would like to be my-usual-energetic-self, I was really tired. I came from an 8-hour night shift see. Nevertheless, I was excited to go there since it’s been what, 2 yrs? I miss the place. More so the people.

So we’re on our way, traffic ain’t so bad, we even stopped somewhere to get food – Krispy Kremes donuts, we were playing music in the car, chatting, everybody happy.

And then we ran into car troubles — clutch is broken, and somewhere in Los Banos we stopped in the middle of the road. Five people, including the Buko Pie and Espasol vendor had to push our car to the side.

To cut my story short, my dad figured it would take a while for the car to be fixed, and it’s scorching hot. We need to somehow clear out since Kuya mechanic has to fix it.

Where to go? To the nearest mall of course! We waited, ate and shopped just to kill time until our Tito Jun picked us up. My dad had to stay w/ the car until it gets fixed, poor him. But what chpice does he have? Good thing is when we arrived at my Lolo’s house, my dad got there roughly an hour later. So it didn’t take that long for them to finish fixing it anyway.

The food at my Lolo’s house was divine! I miss the freshness of the fish, even the rice tastes somehow different. I ate away until I couldn’t eat anymore. Also, the air is cooler, fresher,and so different from the Manila ambiance.

I wanted to say that the was peaceful, but it’s not. And it’s because my cousins from my mom’s side are there, and so are some other relatives. So it’s like 15 people talking at the same time. It’s chaos to say the least. But really, really fun.

All my attempts to get some sleep failed.

I was getting messages from my friends to get them Buko Pie, slippers (since Liliw does this Tsinelas Festival) and all sorts. I made a mental note that I will get them later in the day.

By afternoon I gave in. I was fast asleep on the couch and they went to the shoes/slippers’ shops w/o me. I mean, shoe shopping is REALLY my thing, but I had to pass since I was too groggy to even get up.

They came back, woke me up and told me that there were a lot of people shopping. Just like how crowded the malls are here in Manila. And that there were a lot of foreigners around, Americans, Koreans and a lot more. It’s really nice that the tourism in Liliw is booming. Just about time, cause it is a lovely place.

After the pictures are taken, food trays emptied, bellies doubled in size, we said our goodbyes. For it might take another 1, or maybe even 2 yrs before we get to see each other again.

It was a brief, and yet a very nice visit. Come to think of it, I did grow up in Liliw. Spend like my first 4 yrs of life there. It’s a home apart from Makati. And so it will be for the rest of my life 

Cheers to all Liliwenos out there 

Gelene, Camille, Ian, Audrey, Darrah and myself

Sunday meet-ups :P

Random meet-ups on Sunday nights. Especially if its payday :) Cheers!


cutie friendship bracelets

at Greenhills :)


w/ Bern Liz and cutie Zaira


Joel's Bday :)

Bumped into Adam at Shangri-La

Tiendesitas





with college friends Bern, Ron, Joel and Bheng :)

my 2012 list

Wishlist/ Resolutions/ Goal-list whatever you want to cal it :)

So 2011 has ended, a new year begins. Let me list some of my plans/wishes/goals for this new year.

In no particular order...


*Learn how to Drive

For the longest time, my folks has been telling me to enroll in a driving school. Dad even volunteers to teach me how to drive himself. Truth is, I'm scarrrred :D I don't want to be responsible for taking a life of a kid or a dog or sumthing. But I gotta conquer my fear this year!!!! AJA Ysah!


*Enroll in a Fashion School

So I've been checking SoFA lately (School of fashion and the Arts) but it's so damn expensive! I kinda want to send myself to fashion school but I'm afraid my budget won't permit it. Sucks really. But we'll see what happens. Anywho, SoFA is not the only one, there are many other schoold out there! Mom, helpppp :) Fashion Design is so kick-ass!


*Study another language

Wow, this has been on my goal list for two freaking years already. Nihonggo of course! So yeah, maybe this year finally :)


*Avoid Cursing/Swearing

I know, swearing is sweet. Damn right it is! :) But really, I gotta clean up my act this year. Act like the lady that I should be. Not swearing/cussing/cursing anymore. I know it's achievable. But it's gonna be freaking hardddd!!! LOL


*Update my Gadgets

I will definitely get the 4th generation Itouch, the one with dual camera. 8 gig or 16 gig doesn't matter. And I heard there is a 5th gen coming soon, so i also gotta check on that. My BB needs updating as well. I wanted to get the BB Bold 9900, type and touch seems nice. Only kinda expensive though T_T. If I can afford it, I'll buy a BB Playbook this year. Or maybe not, I bet I can't afford it HAHA. Who wants to buy my PSP 3000? :P

*Travel

I've been around the country pretty much. I want to check out other Asians countries this year for sure. Maybe HK or SG or Malaysia. Wow, daming budget! Kaya nga wish eh? :)

*Lovelife

I think it's about time to finally, officially, and properly date someone. Application forms available on the link below. Equal-opportunity employer :) Kidding. It will come when it will, no rush :D Ang magaganda hindi atat :)

*Church duty

I want to get another church duty aside from being a choir member. I gotta let out my creative juices and put them to good use. 0:)

*Tardiness/Being late

I dunno about this one :) HAHA


Happy New Year !!!!

2011 just flew by

I only have 2 posts for 2011? What a shame. T_T


We'll I can only blame it to the fact that 2011 has been really crazy, busy, hectic and all the synonyms you can think of. I've attended quite a lot of events, been here and there, got addicted to quite a lot of stuff. Not drugs no. I don't do drugs, that's gross. Got interested in a lot of new things, listened to new music. A lot.


I'll try to list some of the interesting things I did this year. Here goes: In no particular order.


*Got addicted to Domo-Kun and My Neighbor Totoro cause they're uber cute :D
*Went to the Incubus concert \m/
*Went to Palawan with my high school friends, Malditas.

*Attended gigs of my rapper friends. Bgy Tibay and Konektado.
*Met Ian Tayao and Reg Rubio \m/
*bought a lot of shoes and bags HAHA
*got really active on Twitter, opened a Tumblr account
*forced to join a company pageant thing -_- pffft
*my face was on a freaking flier all of a sudden -______-
*got a Lhasa Apso named Wafer who totally changed my life :P







I'm sure I did more stuff than what's above. But you get the point, I was really busy this year. busier than usual if I may say. And oh, our chapel got dedicated last Dec 16. And that was really MAJOR.


I'll try to post something before the year ends, maybe like a Wishlist/ Goal-list for 2012.


Happy New year everyone! ^_^


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Crackberry

I was shopping at SM Megamall after an appointment w/ the Ortho and I saw something that made me say ~ Whoa!

NO. It's not James Reid again, too bad. =) Side story, I saw him before at Bonifacio Highstreet and I totally got rooted on the spot. He even waved at me!!! asdfhklgj!

Anywho... :)

What I saw was, Blackberry was on 15% off ~ kyaa! Next thing I know, I was heading to the ATM and buying my first BB mobile phone.

I've been wanting to get a BB for the looongest time. Heck I even named our black cat Blackberry, bless him. She's more than 1 yr old now :)

What do I love about using a BB?

Facebook/Twitter App

I think every 25 yr old female, that I know that is, is either on FB or Twitter or both. Social Networking has just become a way of life these days. Before, it was only Friendster. And that was like waaay back 2003 or so. Now there's Multiply, Tumblr, Lookbook, whatelse? Myspace and many, may more I'm sure.

On my BB I am always connected on FB and Twitter. I love how I can easily respond to notifications, chat with my friends, post comments, read updates, get the latest news, directly on my phone. It's so fast! What I love about it is how your BB lights up everytime there is a new SMS, email, FB notification, Twitter mention or BBM. Gaah, it's the best tool for messaging!

BBM

Every BB user LOVES BBM :) It's a very useful feature unique for BB phones. Blackberry Messenger lets you send chats, voice notes, photos, files even MP3 to any other BB users anywhere in the world. And of course as long as you're on a data plan, it's unlimited. It uses a BB PIN which is unique to each BB users. All you got to do is get your friends' PIN and add them on.

You just even scan their barcode if your so lazy.


Talking about being connected non-stop? Handy when you're having a night out, too! ;)

What else? It's got other typical fone features like: Wifi, Calendar (it's a good organizer BTW), Alarm clock, MP3, and so on...

But it's gotta have set backs too, right? Ofcourse, it's not a perfect phone. Well for the record, there is no such thing as a perfect phone. Even an Iphone 4 isn't perfect. ;)

I hope it has a better cam. Camera ain't bad, but it's not that good LOL

Iphone vs Blackberry

And then there's that never ending battle of which one is better. Iphone or BB??? For me, both have their weaknesses and strenghts.

(It's all over YT, Iphone 4 vs Blackberry Torch) T_T

Best thing I love about BB that I hate about Iphone is that BB is much faster. I personally find it quite hard to type on an Iphone. I'm been an Itouch user and I never get used to it for some reason.Just the typing part. The touch interface of Iphone is superb. I've never used Torch so I can't really compare.

What I love about Iphone are the cool applications which BB doesn't have. BB has Apps via BB App World, but not as good, and as much choices either, compared to Apple/Iphone.

So I guess if you're big on messaging, get a BB. And if you're more on fun Apps and games, get an Iphone. (Tip: if u have an Itouch, get a BB, and you get best of both worlds! )

So there, just wanted to share how much fun I'm having with my BB. It fits my lifestyle I guess, that's why I like it so much :) And for the camera set back, well that's why you have Digital Cam/DSLR :))

Oh, and people call it Crackberry cause it's damn addicting. You've been warned!!!

P.S. Wanted to get a Blackberry Playbook!!! T_T

What's the use of this account???

SO I have 2 followers, right? Yey, let's celebrate! LOL

I would have been depressed to only have two followers here on Blogger if I were a celebrity. And since I'm not, It's fine. I guess. haha.

I know, i know i haven't been updating this account for ages, last post was like nearly a year ago <---- LOSER. >.<

Here's my plan, I will try my best to update this blogspot as much as I can. And lay low from Facebook and Twitter a little. haha.

Too many past trips, too many opinions, too many issues here and there, lovers have come and gone LOL Seriously, a lot of things have happened that I wish I was able to share here, but haven't.

Too many topics i got interested to, too many music have been played in my room. Loud and Not. Filipino, English and Korean. Some even Japanese.


Newsflash: English singer Amy Winehouse found dead on her London apartment!!!!


Ok, point heard. I will try to be more active here. And I have been planning to post fashion blogs forever!!! Nggghhhh...it never happened. Too lazy I guess...

Gotta conquer laziness! Okay, starting on blogs now.

Swwwwoooossshhh............!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that famous blogger

Have u ever secretly wished to be that famous blogger? I did. haha

Not so much about having thousands of subscribers...but I wanted people to... give a damn on what I write. hehe (as if it's any good).

Although I know I'm not the best writer, I thought I could write something that people (atleast the ones that I know) will read. Something that will ignite their interest...or something that they will appreciate...and maybe even learn a thing or two...

But nah, it never happened. And maybe never will (c'mon Ysa, where's the confidence?) Like what I said, I'm not that good and besides, I'm too lazy to take it seriously. So, so much for my small-time dream.

You know what? just to share, at one point I actually applied for a job as a Web Content writer at some American company in Ortigas. I actually almost got in, but ended up turning it down. At first, my thoughts were "For the love of writing, why not try it? It'll be definitely cool to just write and get paid for it right? "

As it turned out, it was not that easy. haha. Gosh, I'm such a quitter. And I hate myself for it. HAHA. But wait, hear me out, they asked me to write about stuff that I don't like. Childish much? I didn't want to write crap about people and things that I don't give a damn about. =)

There I go again with my stubborn self. But honestly, it was not that easy. To Come up with 500 words about a certain not even A-list hollywood celebrity and it should contain such and such number of keywords. It's sorta boring. I enjoyed the reading/research part better than the writing. And that's exactly the feeling that I didn't want to have in a job. Boredom =(

Of course, writing for the net is different from writing for, say newspaper or magazine.You get that feeling of, who cares? it's just the internet. wakaka. And, I since I was just starting, I would be such a brat if I refuse to follow. 'Nuff said, I didn't push through with it. It just didn't feel right at that time. I'd rather talk, and talk, and talk more if that's what I gotta do... Besides, never a dull moment with my Aussie mates =)

*Okay, I was really side-trailed*

Going back to my topic, I was thinking what should I blog about that would make people read my blog and actually care about the sh** that I put here... Hmmm... Perhaps the music that I listen to... but it's mostly old, boring rock tunes, gotta be something more current. J-Rock? that would have a market. Kpop? that's really 'in' right now. Throw in a bunch of cute pictures and my blog would definitely be a hit. Pinoy Rap? That's really making a wave right now, upload some videos and it would be really fun. And I'd be helping some friends promote =)

Why not right? This blogspot should be an extension of my personality and self-expression. Since I don't get money from this, it's just plain hobby. Express yourself? Kinda like my tag up there. Look up, right under the blog title. You are what you read. You are what you write.

So yeah, hopefully, I find the time and the energy to sort of, put more effort into my blogs. And not just write some random sh** that comes out of my head. Of course there will still be those cheesy blogs about my favorite topic, which is Love by the way. Only that next time, I hope I'm not, again, broken-hearted by some two-timing bas**rd and a back-stabbing bi***, or by some a**hole that I dated. =) I'll write something more cheerful.

To conclude this, I've already given up that small-time dream of mine to be a famous blogger. I can never be Perez Hilton. haha. Who's wants to be like him anyway? Besides I'm not gay or lesbian, there's nothing interesting about me. HAHA. Anywho, I'll just be the infamous one. Kidding.

To write something that my friends would have fun reading is enough for me. I would appreciate a comment or two even if it says "you just wasted 15 mins of my time." Ultimately, I'll try not to be a selfish writer. Besides, I write not only for my eyes. Why the hell will I post it on the net for? Damn right!

2 Years Ago...

2 years ago...

I just could not sleep today. It's like the worst case of Insomnia for me... 6 o'clock in the morning and I'm still wide awake. I knew I had to do something, but what? I had for the nth time, finished reading the HP series that I have with me (other books are still w/ borrowers, w/c reminds me: "Guys please return my books already!" LOL).

So what I did, I opened my Starbucks journals I have not opened for ages that I had filled w/ nonsense-and-semi-sensible

stuff. I looked at my 2008 journal, and I read through it. I stopped at 18 May 2008. Exact same date as today, only 2 years ago.

I read my journal entry and it was funny but heart-breaking at the same time. Hmm... It read:

" I couldn't eat, my gosh! I didn't go to our training. I thought I'll be brought to the hospital again. Good thing I realized it was so stupid to end my life just bcoz of this."

At first I gave a forced laugh. Though I know completely that there was nothing funny about it. For I know what exactly it meant. That, was probably one of the most difficult times in my life. For on that day, I had discovered a secret. Secret was it really? For me it was, but a lot of people already know. Except for me, I guess. It's bad enough that I was cheated at. But more so, I felt betrayed by everyone.

But this was an old issue, so old it did not have he same effect on me. (Good thing)

And then I thought "Why do memories such as these had to revisit our now peaceful existence?" The very scenario that I was trying to forget was sort of being shoved onto my face. All I could ask is "Why?"

I maybe wrong, but I thought... I just had to make a peaceful goodbye with the past. I thought I had already. But it was like a little voice in my head asking me "Oh, Ysa are you sure you have?" and another voice will say " I'm sure I have, a long time ago. I'm totally fine now, am I not?"

But it's a question only me and no one else could answer. I did not dare answer that question. Instead, I prayed. For there is nothing else to do but to pray.


***I'm playing music from Itunes as I write this, and the song shifted to 'Into the West' by Annie Lennox from the LOTR OST... haha. Great one Annie, like I really need that right now! LOL...Anyway, moving on...***


As I read on my 2008 journal... the entries got more interesting...

"I had offered devotional prayers since that night, every 10 o'clock at night..."

26 May 2008 (what a coincidence )
"I was so down this day and I hardly ate anything. I haven't been reporting to the office. I didn't eat dinner, instead I went upstairs to my bedroom and my mom followed me. It was an intervention." - My mom did not go to work the next day just to make sure I eat =(

The entries became better though after that horrific day. Who knows what could have happened to me...Gives me chills up to now. I have proven though that after your lowest point, there was just no other way but up! And as a result, I became a happier and ,if possible, a crazier me! LOL.

It was June 2008 and I "Went to Boracay w/ my high school friends"... A couple of other " Girl's night outs" and trips... My life was back on track. Well, pretty much. At least crying nights were over,sort of.

The journal entry that I saw that gave a BIG smile to my face happened exactly 2 months after 18 May.

So it was now 18 July... "I got a call from London," and " lasted for almost 2 hours." And other lines that I would not dare share. HAHA. And my life pretty much changed after that. The hurt that I was feeling was somehow eased, until it did not hurt anymore. LOL

Going back to present time, 18 May 2010... Well, it past 12 so it's technically 19 May.


Now I'm sort of in a similar situation that I was in 2 years ago. And confused as I am right now, with so much going on around me... I think I know exactly what to do. It had worked for me before and I have no doubts it will work again =)


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P.S. To anyone who will be so unfortunate to read this, I hope you'll be able to reflect somehow. I know girls would have had pretty similar cases of bad experience such as mine. Feel free to comment. Good day to you all!